[ special day ]

today is suppose to b a happy n special day but y m i not happy so moody when i wake up? tis word 'WHY' has always been appearing in my head....why muz i tink of so mani why why why?i'm tired!i dunno wat can i say now...juz feel like crying out to c if it helps me....tink of happy memories oso will cry coz i miss u all...the days tat we can b together...tink of sad moments of course oso will cry lor...like a cry baby...a loose tap...i've to find tings to do in order to stop me frm thinkin...but wat's there for me to do? i really wan to b a happy person like i told some of u i will not b sad easily..but sorrie i really fail...fail badly...den i wanted to b ur sun to shine all of u when u r under the rain...but now..i myself is under the big big drops of rain...all i can say to u all is sorrie sorrie sorrie!i'm always thinkin if we can turn back the clock den it would b great coz i can stop frm hurting u all...there will b much more happiness den sadness...now..ppl r always or easily sad...wat a moody atmosphere!i dun wan tis to happen!WHAT can i do to save or help the situation?WHY muz it be like tat?WHY i've change a special day to a sad day?sorrie everyone esp....u..if u noe who the u stands for...if not den nvm...i've became a bad bad person.i dunno y i'm tired of life...but i still muz tell others life is so good...what m i doin? Do anyone understand me?can i c u all now esp .......?i nid u all to get me out of tis stormy weather...ay yilin u r goin on holiday soon...3 more days...i dunno wat would be like without u...how m i goin to face madms...i dun wan to face them..there's always so mani problems! hope u enjoy ur holiday k...

if u noe wat day is today...juz wish it's a happy day for u although mine has been destroyed... dun ask me any questions...tis is all i wan today..sorrie again....!
-i lurve euuu-