trainings!!!

tues...redx training...actualli dun wan go de...n yilin actualli oso dun go de..den actualli i was surprise yilin will ask me u wan go not...since she came bac frm NZ den she oso feel sian of trainings le...so u noe how i feel le hor plus when there's even more tings bothering u den more more fan le...!hate witch n another one not yet haf a name lah...k i'm bad callin ppl names...but they r realli realli veri irritatin...how i wish they juz disappear...den it will b veri veri veri gd n mayb i will not feel so sian 4 training le...k haf footdrills 4 abt 3 n a half hour den request 4 recreation but muz do pt...so do pt lor cauz maurice is saying he hand pain or leg pain le...but i oso agree to do pt coz i dun wan whole training footdrills veri scared do the drills wrongly lor...i veri blur de lah...sometimes is follow ppl de...not sure of drills de...dunno long command dunno new drills...aiya my brain rust le lor...actualli tot tat the last training when yilin was in NZ ish the last traing of the holidays but who noes...got tis 5 hour training n fri oso 5 hour training...omg!how can got 2 longest training in the same week...i'm gonna die soon aft the training coz aft tues training wed i everywhere muscle ache now wat...training again! n 28 to 30 got camp....omg again!!!!i really really really really dun wan go!!!save me frm tis!1st is dun wan c those ppl i hate den oso dun like their camp..i noe it will b exactly like the june camp de...i hate it...as u noe camp haf thousands of rules...den when yilin told seniors we dun feel like goin training den they will persuade us n say all abt responsibilities...n i oso wan to b a responsible person...den i was tinkin i force myself go training is 4 wat?y i muz force myself to go? i dun tink there's any benefit to me...y others can owaes pon but not us?cauz we r easy to persuade?cauz we haf soft heart?haiz!n seniors seem to haf change aft the madms talked to them one by one...they became more responsible...but is 4 a few onli...they really haf to b responsible lor cauz next year sec 3 le n we all sec2 den everyting we muz noe n teach our sec 1s n i'm still so blur of tings n too dependent on ppl le...n mayb oso selfish...wat if next year no1 join?as u c now got onli 4 sec1s u noe!wat can i still say?i dunno next year redx will turn into wat....i tink mayb got 1 way to change tis feeling of redx frm me is to haf some frens to join redx....but as i say redx until so wat who will still wan to join?sorrie redx n seniors..i've let u down.....now i dun wan go camp...wat can i do?u noe how much i dun wan go is like i wan to fall sick or mayb get injured to not to go camp u noe...but 1 ting gd is can b in the same grp as yilin...so shld i go or not....? sorrie 2 bore u all up of tis entry......actualli is nth to u all...juz givin me tis time to shout out abt all the troubles.... i realli nid some support frm ppl...but i noe i will let u all down de...so better dun request anyting frm u guys...
-i lurve euuu-