some setbacks...

long time no blog le...sorrie...
these days a lot of things had happened without me knowing...when i realised...i tink it was sort of late...hais
ppl r driftin apart from each other..dunno y...izzit bcoz of being together 4 quite a long time den will like tat?i felt veri rotten when i began to ignore my frens...the ones i loved...i was tinkin how can i b so mean to leave them alone....but do u noe wat is the feelin like in me?can u feel it?there's nth i could do...mayb i'm juz trying to gib ourselves a break....but u will nt tink like tat...u might b mistaken...n i dun wan to c u so depressed bcoz of me...so when i c u cry...i felt tat i m the most rotten most bad most stoopit most idoit person in the world...i felt so bad of myself...so i cried too...when i was crying...i asked myself how can i treat u like tat? i m really veri veri bad...there's nth gd 4 u to haf a fren like tat...u can leave me alone...dun bother abt me anymore...i'm sorrie tat i haf hurt u...make u waste ur precious tears....but in the end u din leave me...u came n console me even when u urself is sad...i apologised....n i felt tat the feelin or our frenship had came bac...it gonna b the same as last time again...everyting will gonna b alright...but den the problem lies wif another person....i'm afraid of lossin any of u...the more i'm afraid the more lost i m...so i dunno wat can i do n i chose to b quiet n din tok much to u...k mayb it's my fault...i shld nt juz remain silent...i shld try my best to improve the frenship when i realised someting is wrong...someting tat i dun wan is goin to happen....but........all i can say is tat frenship...it's actually veri hard to maintain...so if we can b best of frens no matter where we go...how old we r den tat is really someting u can b really proud of...hope our frenship will last forever....hope tings had return back to normal....i wan every1 to b happy juz like last time....come to say of happy...i realised tat tis year most of us is always unhappy...one example is me....
everyday...i will b so tired....nt really happy...even there's some times i m happy...it did not last...it's juz for a while...n the happiness vanished into thin air...the moody feelin will always b in me...if u wan to count the days i m happy n the days i m sad....i tink the days i m sad will b more...n i also tink tat tis year i will haf more sad days than last year...i had already cry so much in the beginning of the year le...wat more? n i actually cried 2 days in a row....i din believe it also...i'm really hopeless...all i noe is cry...but i can't control myself when i feel like cryin...mayb aft i cry out i will be better..n i dun wan any1 to waste their time n effort to come n console me...i dun wan to waste any of ur time...if u do tat u will make me feel worse...pls dun b so gd to me...i will feel veri bad...
gossipin sessions! tell u truthfully...i onli like the 1st gossipin session though we had quite a lot of it le...mayb it's bcoz we had said so much in the 1st gossipin session tat we had nt much to say now le...
let me tok abt fri...the day tat we started to paint our clasroom...in the morning...had dnt n finalli it's my turn to present le...i was sort of nervous...did nt remember wat to say aft i say gd morning every1 den i was tinkin n acted to b busy wif my artefact den when the words came bac into my head den i started speakin...mr victor tan asked me some questions n lucky i could ans all...the most 'memorable' question is y u kip tink abt bois?as my artefact is a muscle man which is 4 bois lah...so i tink a while den i say coz my user is a boy mah...lucky i can tink of tis ans...den when i went bac to my seat...i suddenly tink taactualli reply coz bois r childish nt mature so they nid more toys than girls....haha juz kiddin lah...ay...i tink tat my presentation was ok ba...got some humour too...haha actualli hor when u say a longer period of time le u will realise tat u were like tokin to ur fren nt tat nervous le...actualli quite fun leh...oyah..the other day i was sot sot de...coz it's oral wat den when it's my turn to go out todo silent readin of the passage...i was so ecited n happy tat it was my turn n i shouted yay it is my turn le...every1 was tinkin i'm siao...haha i was so high lor...actualli is bcoz i wan to quickly finish n can join the others gossip...but inm the end no gossipin is juz chattin...ok go bac to fri...aft dnt was hist n we went to the heritage gallery to do some work...den i was high when yl told me tat she saw my name den she brought me to c...den i started tellin those ppl i will tok to tat i saw my name n brought them to c...hahas...recess....apologised to ks...on the way up frm the heritage gallery to class....i told him sorrie n he purposely say he can't hear n make me say louder n louder n until i almost wanted to shout but i dun dare later disturb other classes leh...den he 4give me but nt qh...den i help qh to kneel down n say sorrie...qh...actualli it's ok de....4 u it's difficult to kneel down to apologise but 4 me it's really veri easy 4 me kneel down n tell ppl sorrie de...so u dun feel bad or wat lah...drama was dicussin of scipt again lor den dance...as i said i'm nt talented in dancin so dun look at me when i dance..it's realli veri ugly de...haha...so funni...zh knock into suria n they fell...so funni lah him...den learn new steps...den got 1 step darn difficult lah...dunno when can i do the step properly out...so difficult lor...pei fu mr low lah...we went mac 4 lunch but b4 tat we watched choir lunchtime performance...see then sing n dance...haha quite funni lah....den went mac...saw juniors wif sir....oh wat a surprise k .....den went bac class n help paintin n it's like veri few ppl...den we decided to skipped 1 hour of trng so we told the madm earlier...tis is already responsible of us le hor but u all dun let...nt tat u all no class paintin b4....it's juz an hour of footdrills...y cannot skip? the more u dun let me skip the more i wan to pon the whole trng u noe...den they tok to miss low abt it n miss low din help us lor...is like we do tis 4 the class n u as our form teacher dun even help us...den bj at 1st wan to help de but later she oso no choice...den u noe in the end who is the one who kip helpin us? the person is glenn...i realli thank him lots...he finalli got yong chu le...haha though in the end we had to go 4 trng but i really appreciate all he do 4 us...helpin us all the way... findin excuse 4 us...all the efforts he had put could b seen...thanks..now i realli dun mind he come irritate me le...but dun take advantage hor...come to tink of it...will any othe boi in class will help us so much...the ans is no..i dun tink so lah or perhaps they help a while den miss low say no den they encourage us to go trng le...ay the scene when he kip tellin miss low tat nt enuf ppl is real funni...k b4 tat i was realli pissed of smth n onli someone noe abt it...n i dun wish to say it so dun bother to ask....k go trng do a while of footdrill wif sec 1s...n we muz put money between our hands n body to make sure tat we lock our hands dne they say if ur money drop which is when u dun lock ur arm den the money will go to redx fund....haha so every1 locked their arms lor...nicholas was veri irritatin...watever lah..i dun care abt him so i shall nt say anyting...den aft a while of footdrill we had lesson actualli is 4 the emergency exercise tingy lah...we r involved mah....hais...ma fan...den later they ask we all to vote 4 chairperson n so on...den tok ask 4 comments n say abt their redx life...how tough it was...how united they were...ok lah i noe lah...no nid to show off can....n they all act cute lah...den dismissed aft tat...walked to the bus stop wif yl yinyin cat glenn n bj...den met the madms..n theyactualli wan to say gd evening madms de..in the end onli me sayin...nvm...oyah...when doin class paintin...juz nice yilin n va went toilet n wj n jocelyn came...den juz tat moment i told glenn to irritate my madms lah so i dunno they heard a not lor...but then later they call me out n ask me to go trng n i ask if we could go later not n so on...den i was actualli mad tat y muz they come when va n yilin go toielt n left me...but i not angry wif yilin n va lah...tings wan to b like tat den it will b like tat u can't change it de lah...
yesterday...syf...dunno y so tired....den me n yilin were seperated to different squads...hais i dun like th hongyi sir lah...train n train until we so exhuasted den how to gib him gd drills...den their timing so fast de...hanta so fast..i can't catch up...den u noe can die de leh...n bcoz i stomachache so can't do my drills properly...den the weather so hot...my sweat went into my eyes a few times n i endure...hais...so tough trng can...den sometimes stomach veri pain n wanted to fall out but istill endure n kip tellin myself tat the trng is endin soon so juz endure a bit more jiu ok le...den aft trng me n yilin realli can't walk le so we decided to take bus to j8 interchange which is 15 mins of walk or if u r fast is 10 mins of walk lah...den who noes the bus nt go directly there but turn here n there go upper thomsons n dunno where den turn back to the interchange which is like abt 20mins or half hour...so stupid lor..went to buy yinyin present..sorrie so late den gib u present...den went amk eat...den went home...reached home at 3 den sleeped all the way to evening...not really sleep so long lah...watch tv den veri tired den sleep lah...
oyah...maths result...i tink i'm lucky again lah...mr sim scare me lor...read my name the last one 4 16 marks...but i din believe i can get 16 lei...coz i realli tink i did a lot of mistakes...dunno lah..mayb last question save me...den he was grumbling tat he always pass onli at borderline..nt gd so i called hime to jiayou...4 midyear...gib ur best shot k...i really haf faith in u...mayb u nid lots of practise....so do more...study more n u will haf higher marks...u r actualli clever de...work harder!!!me oso muz work hard...i din expect myself to get 16 de...i tink i will fail or get borderline de coz seriously i din revise lor n i tink i will get a bad result for i did nt revise but thank god..i m always lucky...but as i say 1 day i will not b so lucky anymore le...
alright tired of typin le...i had rite a lot le...coz so mani days no rite le...but tis is onli like the more interestin ting or tings tat i can remember...so if i rite everyting tat happen down i dunno how long tis entry will b le...so u muz b happy tat i stopped here le...haha if not i will spoil ur eyes for readin so mani words 4 a long time....