FEAR.

i'm scared of DRIFITING.
that's why i don't dare to be so close with someone.
i'm selfish.
yes i am coz i don't want to get hurt all over again.
although i have made a lot of friends during this past 3 years but there are some who come and go.
some who appeared at some part of my memories.
i won't forget you all but just regret that our friendship can only last for this long and we have to stop our friendship here.
there are also some that accompanied me through these 3 tough years although we might have some disputes or cold wars now and then but i'm really very grateful though.
you stayed by my side but sometimes we just appear to be not as close as some time back then.
i hate the feeling of someone entering my life and disappeared.
when i have accepted you as my close friend and you just left me alone after some time.
are you toying with me?
i hope not cause i know this is very hurtful to you and me.
but i just don't want to get hurt ANYMORE!
NO MORE!
i might be too over protective but this is for myself.
i wished that you did not appear in my life than to apeear and disappear.
how sad.
i can't really control this cause i still need friends every now and then.
i can't close the door and shut myself away from you all.
i can't bear to treat you all so bad and made you all stay away from me just to prevent more pain in the future.
it's unfair to both of us.
but sometimes when i think of all of them who drift from me, i realised it really makes an impact and my heart hurts a lot.
coz i hate losing.letting you all go.
there's no way others can take your place even if you played a tiny role in my life.
To me, every individual is different.
all of you are unique.
all of you can make my day or even spoil my day.
please be the angel.
don't break my trust in you or great impression of you.
you plays a role!
no matter how small isit, it will affects me a lot.