trying hard.

it's probably my 3rd major time trying to learn how to let go.
it's really very difficult.
i failed once agian.
but i noe i was almost there.
however, i realised that if i failed my first step, it's pointless already.cox i noe i cant carry on anymore.
that first step is really very impt to me.
i struggled for hours.
walking aimlessly, sitting down to read to calm myself.
until i finally finished reading n it's time for me to make my decision again.
the devil in you, always making you to take the wrong step.
it's horrible.
all the temptations, the calls overpowered my determination n perserverance.
this is not what i want it to be.
no choice.
sometimes, i felt that i was so foolish.
covered and damaged all the things that i once tried so hard to build.

misunderstandings reappering again n again.
nobody have to voice it out but i could sense it.

but one thing is for sure.i trust the friendship.
if it's easily broken, it meant that we din start it well n it's not strong enuf to withstand all these.

letting go is the thing that i've to learn.cause it's part n parcel of life.
in my life, so far, i've 4 things to let go.
2 down[i dun even noe if i've really let go], 1 in progress but i noe that it wun be easy.
i promise, i wun let e last one go cox it's really precious to me.
it meant a whole lot to me.