Thursday, September 15, 2011

I'm the one who brought your expectation high up and yet i'm the one who bring it down.

"From a gold unit to a unit without anything, not even a bronze."

Actually, i've talked to someone about this.
Actually, i definitely know how to console myself.
But it's just me who chose to hold on tight to all the responsibilities, to make my life difficult and miserable.
Sometimes i do question myself why must i do this to torture myself.
Probably it's because of the underlying reason behind those responsibilities.
Do you think i'm very foolish?
Do you think that i take things too seriously?
I'm just too used to taking up those responsibilities cause if i failed to do so, i would be damn disappointed in myself and feel damn guilty too.

I hate myself for giving up that easily and regret. I should persist and do what i think is right even if it means that i'll be doing it all by myself. Actually you've done that before, why can't you do it again this time round?

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