my soulmate.

WHY?! WHY DIDN'T I STOP MYSELF FROM DOING THIS AGAIN.

Constantly telling myself not to cause i always know that the answer would be the same so what for ask?
Ask, because I thought that there is a teeny weeny bit of hope? Ask, because I thought that the answer would be different this time round? Ask, because I believe you feel the same way as I do.
But time and time again, because of asking, I ended up being disappointed. I feel that it's as if I'm begging you to meet me. For people who know me well enough, you know that I seldom ask, I don't want to beg unless really needed. Maybe because of pride?
So once again, you gave me the same answer. Maybe I really shouldn't ask anymore. Maybe I should just sit back and wait and stop trying to be proactive.
Whenever you reject, it just feel that I've failed. If only I can stop caring...
Just look me up when you need me k? I will just wait patiently. I hope that I can.

I definitely know that crying doesn't solve the problem but sadly, there would always be at least once per week. And I'm always so upset with myself and guilty too cause many people actually ask me to be happy and I kinda promised them that I will but yet again, I've just broken that promise.

My heart is really fragile... I can't take anymore heart pain again... It's really enough. I dunno why but yesterday's was one of the worst. You may think that the reason is ridiculous but it hurts really badly just because I care.