ESCAPING =[

hais! i wan to ESCAPE!

escape frm all the stress!

STRESS FRM EVERYTING!

FRM PPL.FRM cca. FRM STUDIES!

i hate to b so serious durin trng coz my junior will b scared of me. but wat i wan is to teach them to b serious when they nid to do work.be serious n do tings perfectly so tat durin camp or when the madms who had passed out came bac to c they wun haf much tings to scold our NCOs.

bein a senior is realli stressful. hais. wanting to do all tings perfectly is oso stressful.bein responsible is oso damn stressful!

the most terrible ting is when u wan get the job done quickly n perfectly, some ppl might not b cooperating wif u.some might not wan to listen to u or mayb some might tink u r bossy.

i'm tired! pls leave me alone.

whenever i haf hopes on smth, it will always be nth in the end.tings will juz vanished.i can't get wat i wan.

failing to plan= planning to fail

but wat if u haf already plan all the tings but den in the end nobody cooperate n nobody come n so on.

ex is like when our NCOs plan for us the trng or camp den we din go is juz like wasting all their eforts.though some of us came but is tat enuf? they will appreciate tat we came but den tat is still not enuf.

i dunno wat it'll b like when we become NCO next year. it's not the end of sufferings but it's the starting of lots n lots of responsibilities. i wan to b a gd NCO.but i dunno how to.but nvm there's still half year to go.let's not tink abt it first. juz leave tat aside.

one more ting is tat. i've plan the ice skating trip n i've been wondering for days if it will b successful like will it b fun? will there b all the ppl we invited? n now i'm afraid mayb if we haf trng as in last min de.coz i already plan it on wed so tat none of us haf trngs but den...i dunno. mayb haf? i oso scared later one by one evryone tell me they can't go. but den i'm a little bit relieve now tat at least xx juz now said tat he'll go.i felt better now.but den wat if trng??? hais.

all i wan is to meet up wif my frens n haf fun.is tat realli tat dificult?

life is always so unfair!

sometimes when i din even do anyting den everyting turns out to b my fault.or itried my best to do smth n when it came out to b not right, it'll oso b my fault.hais.

sometimes is like the path or road is u choose de but den u regret aft u came across some uphills n downhills.it's always so contradicting de.

i'm contradicting. i hope tat wed is here fast so tat we can go out n play but den i dun wan it to end so quickly.k it's not tat we can't meet other days but is like i realli take all the chance tat we can meet seriously. i dun wan to waste any time in my life. n perhaps some other days ppl dun feel like goin or too busy to go.
i relli hate planning! i realli dun like to take up all the responsibilities.so sometimes i'm escapin. i noe it's not gd to escape but i'm tired of it n i dun wan to take up the responsibilities.at least not me alone ba.

i'm realli SHI BAI! can onli ask ppl to look at the brighter side but wat abt myself.hais. next time dun call me to do anyting le.i will nv get it done de lo.

p.s: still missin everyone.

ay. happy bdae to glenn didi/ jie ren didi.yup.tues his birthday. i still not yet 4get u r my bro hor.haha will irritate n continue to ask him call me shu na jiejie next year de.hahaha
n zongyou on thurs!
n oso qj on 20 dec.
n n jq on 23 dec.
ok ok still got one last one ziyang [owe me] on 26 dec.
Happy Birthday to all!