pissed off.

why r there so mani troubles?
it's realli veri unfair.
all along, i was onli a spare tyre. a substitute.
no matter in wat kind if things.
i'm always the one.
can't even do a simple thing.
can't handle them.
wat to do next?
i lost all my hopes.
i can't take myself to believe anything or any miracles liao.
everything will just end here.
no matter how i try it eun change de.
like nobody cares wat?
it's not a big deal. ya right...
goin thru tat fear everyday. who notice?
who noes?
who cares?
why!!!!
somethings really can't return to the past?
is all the memories just onli a long nice dream?
can i pls haf it replay one more time?
ya dream on edna.

motivation.
adapt to the days without motvation but now i realise i still nid a motivation.
i'm terribly tired.
can u all just give me a break?
wat's the use of workin hard?
i din get wat i wan?
there was no result for the efforts put in.

learing how to be strong.
not crying anymore.[hope so]
hope not to depend on ppl le.
carry the burdern wif me.
go on without any regrets.

nobody wans to help so i can onli rely on myself.
standing alone.
encouraging myself.
nobody to hold on u when u fall but maybe aid in u aft u fall.
will tat help?
ppl to tok to?
i dunno haf a not?
remain silent.
talking to myself.
i've gone nuts so bear wif me.
tis is not wat i wanted but i was forced until this state.

'i've failed my task'
just this short sentence can change the whole spirit of me.
wanna breakdown.
not knowing wat to do.
crack my brain but nth came out.
this realli affects me a lot.
noones know the pain of just hearing this.