wat's tat for me to remember???

the last trng before cca stand down was like so 'memorable'. haha =.=
cried a lot.
like wat's there for me to cry?
can't i be emotionally strong?
can't i just control my tears for just once? once !!!!
i dun wan to embarrass myself in front all the ugs n madms n my juniors.
stop crying again girl! Please!
u promise urself to not cry anymore or at least not cry so easily but once again u failed.
u r so emotionally weak.
i hate this.
it was a long long day.
had embarrassed ourselves.
i've learnt that i was so indecisive.
i'm so useless in some things.
had that feeling of being the onli one.
running ard the whole sch to find ur madms.
alone with nobody else.
all u can depent is urself.
maybe i was too dependent on my frens le.
tat's y.
maybe i was too afraid to hear those hurtful words le.
tat's y.
maybe i felt tat u all haf give up on us le.
tat's y.
maybe i feared tat our unit would just collapse.
tat's y.
i'm afraid tat we can't do well as we dunno wat will gonna happen just one fine day.
mayb we will just walk in separate ways?

sometimes it's better to run away from the communication.
sometimes it's better not to see n not to hear.
sometimes it's better to b by urself n noones knows wat's happening since they can't help.

wat's the use of regretting when u've decide on things n when things r done.

no use to regret.no use to cry. no use to think so much. no use to think back.

all u've to do is solve the main problem n go on with life.

take all the things as just a small part of life.there's still lots of things awaiting u.

learn from ur mistakes.
stop repeating them.

don't ever be so rash.
think before u say anything.

things come n go. it's not for u to decide.
just sit n watch n grab the opportunity or chance when one arrives.
dun let it go as u will regret again.

u wished tat it was a dream but it's still reality.
u wish it was reality but it was onli a dream.

somethings r always so contradicting n so confusing.

if onli u were there to hold my hand n go through all the obstacles n the highs n lows n ups n downs of life with me.
i wan to be the one to go thru everything with u.
to be the friend tat u will nv forget.

hugs r always free for u if u need it at any point of time just call me n i will try to be there.
i can't promise but i'll try my best.

when u r tired in life just stop for awhile in wat u r doin n continue on when u think u r ready.
dun pull ppl down n suffer with u coz it will onli coz lots of unhappiness.

these r wat i've learnt thru the not veri high period of my life.
hope tat every stupid emotion or feelings will just go away.
leave me alone n i will b happy.

stop complaining. stop scolding. i hate to hear all that.

it's the tots tat count.so dun worry so much.
do watever u think is right n will help the situation.
sometimes it's best tat u dun think too much.
just be a robot n soon u will be so busy with all the work tat u will stop thinking.

stop thinking back coz it wun help.
it onli makes u sad n want back the past.
but u know for sure that u can't turn back the clock so y not just continue frm here n forget abt the past?
it's difficutl but not onli u r goin thru this.
there will b a lot of ppl goin it thru wif u.
dun be selfish to urself or others.
be generous n u will find that u'll b happier.

smile more if onli i can.
who dun wan to smile more?
who wants to use more muscles to frown?
dun force me coz i will nv do it if u force me to.
it will not b real, that's for sure.

to a place where i dun belong to is realli terrible but here i m so i will not not detest or fear but pluck out the courage to face the problems n akwardness.
lots of problems to be solved but step by step n u'll see the results.
be patient n wait for the things tat u longed for n wun give up.

fate. how i wish tat it was fate.
but i dunno.
coincidence?
i dunno.
mayb it was just all my imagination.
i was daydreaming in my lalaland.
the place tat i love to be.

stop hurting me, i beg u. just beleive me. thanks a lot.