troubles.

hey, i'm still not sick.

i tot i will b sick today coz aft yesterday rain during the parade n we stand there so cold.
our clothes all wet n stinky.
n i felt i haf a little sore throat.

but now i'm still alright but i continue to eat chocolates n cheezels.

ppl, it's over. the commissioning of ug council is finalli over.
i dun call it a failure coz i tink it's still quite ok.
my fellow ugians did quite a gd job.
the games ended fast.
it was like one moment when i was alone doin the water balloons while qj cutting the trash bag n i was so pissed wif bb esp pl.
den poof.
the games have ended.
the ceremony began.
n ended wif the slide show.
though i've seen it once but den aft seeing it again, i cried again.
memories flowed back into my head.
the good old memories.
the happy ones n the sad ones.
the days tat we spent together as a ug.
a quick journey thru the past.
i love it.
i longed for it to repeat again.
all of us were so innocent then.
all of us were so cheerful.
no troubles n no worries.
not like now.
everyone is so stress.
so unhappy.
no more happy days without troubles.

lookin back at all the pics tat we've taken.esp during NDP 06 brings back a lot n al\ lot of sweet memories.

aft tat sherman called me to call all the sec 3s to fall in. n i left out NPCC.so sorry.
den later they asked for volunteer n i just stepped out. like wat's wrong wif me?
went to the front n madm louisa brief me.
n i was in charge for the clearing up.
there's so much to remember n do.
i just could not remember every single thing.
was so nervous.
not used to take a huge squad.
instructions given to them were unclear n not loud enuf.
i dunno y.was damn nervous.
scared i say anything wrongly.
can't project my voice.
mayb dun dare?
i kip standing there recallin while i was toking den i kip den den den....
wth la.
sorry.i tink i hai dao the NCC land n air.
argh! so stupid la. squad fall out.
argh!!!!!

ran here n there to clear up the things.
now ended up havin lots of bruises.
i'm not a good ic la.
give them wrong instructions.
shld haf ask clearly before i say anything.
in the end they haf to run down n den up again.
waste their energy la.
sorry ppl! i din mean to.

everyone was so so so tired aft the thing.
the NCC air celebrated louisa's bdae.
haha.initially she wanted to scold them den they just surprised her n she din scold le.
i envy them.
have so much fun.
wanted to join in the fun but no one else join in.
later me alone so extra.

GG was scolded n got pumpings frm their madms.
i pity them.

NCC land was also havin fun ba.
sherman ended up all wet.

aft everything. we left together. thanks ppl for waiting.
ended up carrying 7 packets of flour back.
the plastic bag broke on my way home.
so i haf to hug them n bring them home safely.
tired.

sat.
had the world red cross day cum enrolment parade.
yilin n me.
took pics again.
we were so lost.
dunno wat to do.
just followed the instructions tat were given.
hais. y north district haf so mani casualties during the rehearsal?
almost half the squad gone.
it rained so heavily during the parade.
the parade was cancelled.
the cheerleaders continue to sing songs.
waited for the rain to stop b4 we can leave.

we went to haf tea break or mayb dinner?
aft tat shop ard n took neoprints.
8 of us. 2 madms n 6 cadets.hahaha
hais.
it's gonna be our turn to take over le.
will definitely miss our madms de.
will b like dunno wat to do aft takin over.
will the unit just collapse?
NOPE. we will not let it collapse de.
yup.let's work hard.
ibelieve we can.
we've already gone thru quite a lot le.
we've seen so mani things happen n left.
come n go.
so wat's more for us to worry?
i dunno.


why?
why must i always see things tat i dun wan to see?
it really upsets me.
heartbroken.
loss of words.
nth to say.
can't voice out.
esp when i everytime i began to think the other way round n make myself happy n it will just make me sad again.
livin in sadness.
all the bad things just repeat itself.
until i dunno wat i can do.
sit there n cry?
nope.
i've learn to b strong.
i really dun wanna cry anymore.
at least not for the things tat dun worth my tears.

things r not the same anymore.

ppl just left without a trace.

y izzit always so unfair?