ignorance. =(

this week was quite demoralising. from good to veri bad mood.

tues went yilin's house n had a realli fun time there. it's like so lon so long nv spend such a time wif them le. thx veri much. tat was realli an unforgettable day.
all the toubles just disappeared when we played badminton n do footdrills in the rain.

however, when the days pass, i became so so so tired.

de zui le a lot of ppl. damn sorry.
sorry for my ignorance. sorry for my childishness. sorry for my playfulness. sorry for bein so irritating. sorry for being so mean. sorry for not listening. sorry for givin attitude. sorry for my selfishness. sorry n sorry. hope those tat were de zui by me can forgive me.

went to choir concert on fri. so damn super nice. was always so excited when amkss choir perform. the other pri sch choir was so super cute. den the republic one was quite cool. i like them. haha can always hear mummy's voice n sometimes daddy n xx's voice.

sat. family day. so wat if i went for the family day? m i realli happy?
the ans is no. =(
like no one bothers.
no one cares.
no fun.
no one listen.
they left me there.
lucky there's sam.
left the place at 11.
went for NDP. was already so tired.
juliana n me was like no more energy n wanted to sleep the whole journey there.
my eyes were so heavy.

aft doin drills, finalli i dun wan to sleep anymore.
trng is getting tough.
sir asked if anyone wants to quit.
the ans is NO.
since we joined y we want to quit.
not goin to give up so easily.
found out another bad news which i've always expected.
u all said tat miss low wanted to haf bbq on 19 may izzit?
there's trng again.
sign.hais.

nvm. xi guan jiu hao.
like who will care?
sacrifices come again.

aft trng. we were all dead beat.imagine u practise hanta for the whole hour. legs r aching but it will soon heal. wat abt the aching heart? will it heal so soon?

thx juliana's dad for sending me home. reached home at 7.45. had a good bath n eat n read books n sleep.
TIRED. RESTLESS.

is tmr mon? ya it is. can't even remember things now. cani haf another day to rest?
i'm goin to break down soon le. help me to stand up once again can?

hais. y can't i upload the photos? so frustrating. got to go do my last task for the day.reflection on trng. this week shall goin to be extremely busy. sorry to u guys if i can't spend time wif u.COMISSIONING of UG COUNCIL! here we come! hope it will b successful. bless us!

looking on the bright side. hope things aren't wat i think.

i tot i've adapt to this life n this environment but once again, i miss the past.
i miss the presence of my mummy.my daddy.class 2/2.
just like when i'm at sentosa. i just wished that 2/2 will unite. not i hate the ppl ard me but still the past is the best.it's the best for me. i will find my true self n i will feel so comfortable if onli 2/2'06 was there.
wanted to find some ppl but always failed. maybe this is fate again. god dun wan me to spend time wif u all.
i miss all of u dearly.
maybe u were there but the feeling was not there anymore. drifted. sad. goodbye. n when will we meet again?