argh! shit la.so irritating man. stupid bro go format wat com la.now all my things gone la. no more memories.all my photos gone la. no more proposals reports and all kind of stuffs la. wat more is microsoft oso dun haf.wan to do work oso cannot.den his things r still inside the com la.wth he's doin la. so gonna break down le.
lots of stupid things for me to bother.can i haf a rest for a while? lots of hw.trying my best to complete before i go tuition but den so mani things just appeared and i dunno wat to do la.myb dun even haf time to go tuition le la.
i tot this wk is gd.some things r improving.gain bac one more fren. b a listening ear to someone.my cadets de drills r improving.they think tat trng is somewhat more fun le.but just the things tat happened this weekend make me demoralised n pissed.cac just 3 marks n we can make it to 2nd runner up for north district.their hard work gone.we din win anything AGAIN.cried but wat's the use?qx sir encourage us.thx.but still...now not taking part in first aid com le ba??? lose hope again.footdrill comp.qx sir say can help us.ask him come train us n surely will win smth de.all the schs he trained did win smth.but the problem is we haf enuf ppl not?he kip tell us dun sad but how to.he said tat when he was a cadet he oso nv win anything.i understand everything but wat now.all the chances n hopes we just give up again.
y must give up bcoz of one failure?
everything no mood now.
haf to stay strong bcoz of so mani things but i think i'm falling bac le.some things just reminded me of the past which i dun wan to think of.haf lots of goals but i dunno how to accomplish them now.
maths test 12/20.though i pass but is this gd?
chinese 36/50.same as ds.third ba.but it's still not gd.my mum even say i tot ur chinese veri gd de.yup it's oso demoralising to hear tat the top scorer is onli 40/50.
bio no nid say le la.veda not yet give bac but she told us tat we did veri badly.
chem.so mixed up.dunno how i did la.
i've always haf high hopes on myself.giving myself the pressure but i seems to b slacking n deproving le.oh god.i must buck up! but how?haf been realli realli tired.everyday by 9 smth i'll b dozing off so ended up doing my hw in the morning 4 smth but can't concentrate well too.will doze off again la.
cadets.dunno whether to treat them gd or bad.if gd will they learn?if do the hard ways they complained n dun even noe if they learnt not.AOP still not yet approved yet.helped the sec 1s.hopefulli they can give me a nice one the next aop if not i dunno how to help le.din tok much during tat aop.they r contradicting.different views.how to save the situation? i dunno. y must i always b the peace maker? cause i dun wan c them quarrel or wat la.i just wan peace.n dunno y i became the middle person.passing msg here n there.den later i became the one who dunno anything.dun bother to ask bcoz i wun haf any replies de.
m i thinking too much?hopefulli it is.so tat all those things i dun wan it to happen is not real.it's onli my imagination.
still thinking of my eua reports.i wan them bac n i noe i can't.can't start over agian.n now just can't get myself to continue frm the day i lost it.
keepin silent so i wun cause so much troubles but better not climb over my head.i dislike all tat!
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