lonely girl.

another day of chioning hw by using the irritating com so i'm here blogging.
this week might be a veri hectic n emo wk for most of us.m i right to say tat?
firstly i cut my hair on sun n went to sch on mon wif a new hairstyle n telling ppl i yi qi zi xia cut de or kana electric shock tat's y resulted to this.
mon was a boring start of the week n aft sch the rest haf listening compre so i went kfc wif yilin.yup onli both of us. a bit weird coz long time no like tat le but still we somehow manage to enjoy ourselves ba? saw some ppl which irritated me. dun like to c her la!
so aft tat i went home while yilin went bac to sch.
it was raining but it was weird.the rain seems to b very heavy but when i walked in the rain i felt nth or mayb a bit of comfort but i dunno y.

tues.
NDP trng. was sort of losing my voice.coz no matter how loud i shouted they said they can't hear the command but my fellow NCOs said tat i shouted veri loud le.hey ppl trying to bluff me ah?coz u all din hear properly or u all forget or dunno the command?k watever. firstly help joy train the supporting contingent. we grouped the ppl into 2 grps. for my grp there's bb n some guides. so i din manage to c how my red cross perform la. den for my side.sadly i can onli say tat their drills is not tat gd la.u noe wat i mean la.
later on aft a bit of rehearsing, supporting con were supposed to go practise their going down of stairs.so me desmond n jieying train them together.n of course desmond would do most of the shouting la.but i did help sometimes k.which finalli smth pleased me a little.he said tat i was loud n quite clear in my shouting of command.haha.finalli there's smth tat cheer me up a bit.desmond commanding was a bit funni n weird.haha n i kept laughing. he like dun usualli samula them when their drills is not up to standard so i'll b the devil n kept samula them until they gave me smth tat i tink is gd or alright.

wed.
lots of hw to chiong.bio geo.watever la.i was not concentrating in my studies this whole week la.just seems to b irritated by things. no mood to do lots of things. got some problems here n there.
aft sch had drama rehearsal.at the rate we were going i tot we were doomed but our drama turned out to b alright.quite hilarious.practicalli mani ppl laughed non stop.it was a success aftall.

thurs.
drama.but before tat was pe n recess kana scolded by mr ling.but i still remain calm n ppl ask me y i'm so calm not angyr when kana scolding meh.haha. tat's me la.
so aft tat was late for chinese so just ran into class without anything n since it's test so borrow a pen frm qj lo.thx man.so obviously no mood to take the test la.so just anyhow rite n all of us quickly chiong to the hall for drama rehearsal. n yup btw during the morning there's maths test which i did veri badly la.nid to go for consultation again le la.argh!!!!hais 3/2 is fortunate den us lo.i think they skipped physic prac n chinese test n were rehearsing in the hall aft maths test lo.we r directly opposit la.chiong here n there.
aft sch there's sec 2 AOP.
their 2nd AOP.din do quite well.they like nv hear wat we say during the last AOP de la.some mistakes us them to change they stll din change.although the proposal has increased by 10 pages but still lots of mistakes la. we pumped them.taught them abt taking initiative.taught them quite a lot of thimgs hope they learn n not forget or complain behind our backs.
yf was...i dunno.i was scared.i was shivering then.but she dun believe.ppl remain calm la.
so aft tat yilin xy n yf went home.so left qh n me. aft tat she left with the guys.they still waited for her la.it's fortunate la.dun complain or say anything la.i an also no more le.so left me doing the notice board.maybe escaping frm studying bio test for the next day lo.lucky i was not alone.my juniors helped me.i'm grateful but den i helped u all in smth oso hor.finished doin den left sch ard 1845 n nobody accompay me home.so lonely sitting at the the bus stop waiting for that bus.

fri.
sec 1 AOP.indeed not much preparation n effort put in.it was like last min work la.now they know that the com lab printer sucks.we went thru this b4 too.so dun complain.they were later for AOP.AOP without proposal.LOL.so we haf not much time n it was NDP rehearsal.k for the quantity of ppl, it's improving.13 le.short of 2 more.hopefulli by tues i would haf a full contingent.ppl pls make me proud can?i'm still waiting for tat day where i can show the rest tat we can also make it de but it takes some time la.aft trng haf AOP again.promised them it's onli half an hour but they wasted their own time so who can they blame?
sec 1s, there's lots for u to learn.sec 2, pls teach n help ur sec 1s but before tat be sure tat u can do all the tings u wan them to do before u tell n teach them to do.if not it'll b useless.
for both of u, i hope the next AOP would b a success.we've give u all enuf time le ah.dun disappoint us again n make them scream like mad.i'm sure u dun wan to c ur proposal b torn by us again.help them but dun spoon feed them.teach them n not do for them.we wan u all to b better than us tat's y we r pushing u all now. dun complain u'll c the results later on n by then u all will come n thank us instead of hating us.sec 2s, better dun lie to us again ah. i warn u all.if u all do it again, we wun believe u all ever again le.i'm not sure abt the rest but for me i wun believe u all ever again le.

i felt left out do u all noe? i'm veri miserable now.i dunno wat to do.leave evrything for u all to do since i think u all dun nid me.but i'm not slacking just tat u all r capable enuf.n i c nth for me to do.dun assume pls.u all always assume den wat happens?u all noe la.i felt veri useless.i dun haf the power anymore.u all can just leave me out lo.just skip tat name there on the board lo.i dun mind anymore.coz i dun dare to show my anger n disappointment on u.noone for me to confide in anymore.so there's onli one choice to kip everything to myself lo.nobody cares.ppl r selfish.tat's for real.did u all tot abt how i feel not?i've lose everything n u gain somethings la.watever lo.no matter wat u all r still my friends.i wun bcoz of this break our friendship de.rest assured ba.