sadened

think too much again.
some things i realli noe it wun or can't happen but i kept craving for it to happen.
some things i noe i can't change but i realli wish tat i could.
some things i realli can't control but just sit n watch it happen.
sometimes thinking back realli hurts a lot.
though there were those happy memories but also the real sad ones.
i dunno y when i've lots of things to do but i will just sit back n think.
i want to rewind bac the clock but i can't.
i wan some things to happen again but i can't control.
i want to stop things frm happening but i also can't.

memories.
r u forever staying down there?
wat's the use of remembering?
wat's the use of keeping them?
once it's over, it's gone.
saddening right?

ay today went archery with hougang sec red cross unit.
k they have boys alright.
n everytime i will remind yilin her casualty.
haha so funni la. wanted to play with him but din interact much.
just ask him to take drink for me.
saw quite a few farmilar faces.
n we recallled.
they were frm NDC last year. my grp mates.no wonder so farmilar.
while the rest frm NDP 07.
cool.
i was quite high i think?
n i'll always blend in with my sec twos telling everyone i'm onli a tiny little bit taller than them onli mah.
had fun with my cadets.
tried to balance the time spent with my cadets n NCOs.
as u noe mus communicate so will not haf communication breakdown n misunderstandings mah.
n i realli long long time neva gone so crazy before le.
i even join the sec twos in toking bras n the color n stufff la.
n we laughed like siao.
cox when we walked closer to them they will observe wat color n say out la.
wth la. but they r funni nt sick k!
hey usualli i dun do tat k!

aft tat ate at lot 1 pasta...
regretted.
so ex la.
shld haf jus eat KFC.
den we went to hunt for bread somemore la.
we r erm hungry ghosts?
but the seven month over le leh why r we still here?
coz they left us out!
they ostrich us!
LOL!
toking to myself.
stupid me!
4 fat pigs den went to library n kana scolded a few times.hahaha serve us right.
aft tat decided to go home.
yf most shuang la.one stop den reach le.
i'm the zui xing ku de leh.
den qh n yilin slept in the mrt while i was listening to songs.
woke them up when they were supposed to alight if not sit to marina leh.
oh no. marina.
NDP.
kind of miss those days too.

i realised there's lots of things for me to miss.
but so wat if u miss those things?
some things will neva return.
when some things change, it changes completely.
it wun b the same anymore.

i dun wan go bac sch!
i'm bac to tat question.
studies or red cross?