india trip

hi ppl. i din blog for a month already. maybe nobody will come n see le. tat's good.i think.

back from the india trip. i've realised tat i've learnt discover n experience quite a lot.hahaha
adapt to tat environment le but now haf to adapt bac to the old environment again.
i miss the rooftop the most.
i miss meeting there at night n tok everyday.
i miss listening to don's singing but not talking.
i miss bullying barrie n see his poor thing look.
i miss trekking with qj n don.
i miss laughing n staring at dinie.
i miss zi xiang's gayness. yucks. hahaha but it's funni.
i miss the yang xiong n mo wan wan scene.
i miss the bus rides?
i miss the busy traffic?
the honkings n the excitement of running across the road to delli hutt.
i miss waking up the first everyday.
i miss yongbang kneeling down proposing to me.hahahah just kiddin la.
where's my ring?
i miss the kids n teachers there.
i miss yongbang n don 'fighting' n playing with each other.
i miss lots n lots of things.
but things always change.
we haf to b realistic.
all these can onli b our memories. coz we can't stay in india.
friendships made can drift when we won't get to c each other everyday.
but of course ale to meet n noe these good ppl better is my blessing la.
it's over.
i'm back in singapore where i belong.
i love singapore n everything here but it's hard to choose between some things.

long time din emo until like tat le.
i hate to b emo.
sorry qh.

i feel like isoing myself tmr.
i dun wan to go sch tmr.
coz i fear of mian dui some things.
i can't even get to c yilin n sam.
they went to OBS le.
thx yilin for doing most of the things i reminded u to do.
i wan to go send my cousin off tmr.
they r goin to hong kong.
again one more week before i get to c her.
but just now when she called to ask me abt my experience in india.
i was loss for words.
one thing is i was quite irritated n troubled so dun feel like tokin.
another thing is i dunno how to express myself.
my tears just flow out like the other day at the airport.
i'm sorritat i just stoned n din tok on the phone.i remain silent when she kept asking me things.
the truth is i've got a lot a lot to say but just bcoz of my stupid mood which spoils everything.
i dunno wat to say but to listen silently until u hang up the phone.
i feel so zi bi now.

things which i shld b angry, i can't even bother much already.haf no feeling then. so wierd.
lots of things for me to do but just can't bring myself to do.
i felt so empty now.
like loss a lot of things like tat.
felt so bored too.

wanted to transfer my pics to the the com but my com will keep restarting when i wan to transfer the pics.
i'm so pek ceik now la.
argh!!!!!

if i haf the time n mood next time den i tell stories tat happened in india.
i nid u!