woken up?

felt bad n weird today.
did everything without energy.
like goin to tear apart or break down anytime.
that piece of paper made me even more worse.
lookin at it.
thinking abt lots of things.
tears flow out.
helpless.
saddened.
useless.
ashamed.
disappointed.
guilt.
sorry.
despodent.
abashed.
disgruntled
thx charlotte for breakin my tots by callin me.
n the rain stopped.

listening lots of things frm ppl ard me.
bad creatures n so on.
i felt the acute pain in my chest when i swallowed the water down.
miserable.
pain.
not able to converse much wif ppl ard me.
shut myself away frm them.
it hurts for not reaching my target.
have i woken up?
r u all geared up?
prepared for the next battle?
i'm not goin to fight in a losing battle again.
no more regrets.
start fighting n not hiding.

i'm glad n realised tat almost all of u had feelings for red cross le.
frm wat u were last year till now.
a huge improvement.
be it in discipline or taking initiative.
the dim bulbs began to shine.
read each n everyone of ur blogs.
some surprises me.

from cute but dun realli haf disciplined...

to ppl who feel for red cross n haf found thier goals in red cross.


"Silver for EUA. Andddddddd,Gold for CSA. HAHAH :D
R is for Redcross.
We love Redcross.
If you want to be the best.
Join the redcross family."

"haha i FELL DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH.... red cross"
"we gotta spirit"

the rest i can c the enthusiasium for things tat u put "!" n so on.
u mentioned abt red cross.
stressed n happiness in red cross.
this is den e real life in red cross.
indeed we fight for glory n fight for victory n fight wif a spirit nv seen before.

the promises tat u all have made.
e assuarance tat u all gave me.
i'm realli veri grateful.
thinking of all these,
i realised tat it's 1 month n 9 more days to CCA stand down.
u all haf got to study hard then for ur mid year k?
dun follow my steps.
it's realli tough n u will feel tat pain if u do so.
u wun wan it.
we work hard in cca.
we study hard for exams.
we play hard when we r allowed to.
excel in everything!
this is wat i wan to c in our unit.
it's no use bein bonded if we dun do the above things.
watch ur steps.
be cautious.
dun take e wrong step.
ur destiny begins with a single step.

i dunno y but haf a strong feeling.
i think i'm missing u all already.
i dunno how will it b like when cca stand down or even when we step down.
i'm so gonna miss u all.
my lovable cadets.
i will remember u all de.

did we realli make an impact to ur life?
i wonder.
did u all learn?
do u all remember all the things tat we said?
did we push u all too hard or r we too lenient to u all?
can i be a VI n continue to serve my unit?
i would realli like to.
will u all wan us bac?

Lastly,

i will definitely, absolutely miss this bonded batch of NCOs.

NCOs o7-o8, we're the best!

ay Happy Birthday to:
my bro n carin tay (o3o3o8)
madm kexin n hazwani (o4o3o8)
yifang julian xinlin n umar (o5o3o8)
barrie (o6o3o8)
i love u all!