Failed

Just as what i've expected, i've failed my accounting paper again. Have to go for a retest in 2 weeks time which means that i need to restudy again.
Alright, in the first place i didn't even really study for it. I started only at 10 pm when the paper is at 8.30 am on the following morning.
What more can i expect?
I knew that i would fail that's why i didn't have much reaction upon receiving the paper today but it only proved me right to the rest. I told you i would fail right.
Everytime the rest say that they will fail only means that they didn't manage to meet thier target/expectation whereas whenever i say that i will fail means i'm very serious that i will. I know my standard, my capabilities.
I really hate my accounting modules since year 2 but what else can i do? change course?
Don't think so right? I'll just try my very best to at least pass and score better in exams. It's my last semester in school and i don 't want to repeat any modules and can't go for my 6 months internship because of that.

With so many major projects and datelines on hand, i don't even know if i have time to study for the retest although it's good in a sense that i could start studying for my weakest module earlier but i just need more time! I've been chionging for so many things everyday although at times i could be lazy and procrastinate. This term will pass very fast with exams coming in a months' time. Everyday rushing for this and that like a crazy woman. What a life.

No matter how much i've expected, deep down, it still hurts. I really hate myself for failing again and again. I always tell my cadets that nothing is impossible and i should actually prove it right but it seems like i just can't do it myself. I shouldn't blame on anyone for getting this grade but myself. Even though you have a reason for it but the problem still lies with you. But i don't regret what i've done causing this but probably i should be more focused when i was revising during that short period of time.

Make sure you buck up and i don't want to see this from you again! PRIORITIZE! That's the word i truly understand but just can't manage to do it.

On a lighter note, i've semi surprised Mendi Ang once again and celebrated mum's birthday at Jalan Kayu's Mad Jack today. Happy birthday Mum! and Happy belated birthday Mendi! :)