Missing.

When your life is only about work, sleep, eat and shit, you'll begin to start to miss all the things that you used to do and used to have. Even those small and insignificant stuff too.

Well, I don't want to complain any further about my internship cause i wish to be more optimistic and to see things from another perspective but i just have this sudden feeling of being so out of place and starting to miss everything, the whole lot of things.

I miss my unit, my cadets. It's almost 3 months since i last went back to that familiar place to see those familiar faces or even communicate with them. I want to find out more and help to solve the problems that they might be facing now or just merely giving them my support to the Sec4s who are taking their Olevels, the NCOs who are most probably busy collating the EUA and CSA, Sec 2s who are involved in UIP busy with their lesson plans at this period of time. And of course to groom and nurture the Sec1s too.

I wished that i could go back for trainings just like before but i can't.
I wished that i could join them in the Heritage Trail but i can't.
I wished that i could go for the Outing that the Sec1s planned but i can't.

The annual camp is nearing and i hope i could attend or at least to drop by.

I miss my dear friends. The last mini meetup was during the birthday celebration for Aunty Chunyou. That's not enough! But i guess since everyone is so busy, the best that we could to do is to make out some time for birthday celebrations. Additional meetup/gathering is almost impossible.

I really want to go on a holiday/overseas trip with them but (most likely) i can't.

I wonder how have my beloved 7 dwarfs been. How are they doing in their respective JCs and Polys? Their promos results?

There are many many more things.
Sometimes i feel that by saying that you miss someone is really useless, you have to do something to prove it. As you know, it's true that action speaks louder than words.

Truthfully speaking, i think that I'm not taking as much initiative as last time to plan for gatherings and stuff now. I'm just sitting by to wait for people to do it when i know that most of the time people are just waiting for each other to do it. Probably I'm tired of doing so, especially when it takes lots of time and effort to do it; when people just don't cooperate. It gets annoying when it happens not only once or twice but every single time.

Having said that, i still love you people cause you all are still my awesome friends afterall. <3

Although we might be drifting or not communicating that much but right now I'm still consistently reading blogs to get updates on those who are really important to me.

At times, i did try to start up conversations with some of them but i guess it's a 2 way thing and it has to be at the right timing such that you shouldn't pop up and start to chat when someone is busy right? Then, how will we know that when is the person free? Well, depends on your luck then!
To keep up to the promises that both parties would keep each other updated is rather difficult when you don't see the person everyday or as often as before. But it can definitely be done if both put in the same amount of effort right?

It's pretty ironic.
When you get to see someone everyday, more than half a day each day, you might get tired of it during every meals together but when you don't get to see them for days, weeks or even months, you'll miss them and treasure every meals that you can have with them.

Sometimes you just don't really know what you actually want.

Going to be busy again. With VIP and RCYC coming up and have to complete my interim report by the end of this month. :/ Scratch head cause i don't know what i should write.

Taking a step at a time. Being cautious and wary.