The unknown stress from work

I really wonder what's my internship for?

Am i working for $? (Not like I'm having a high pay)
Am I working for experiences and to learn new things?

Getting tired of the same old routine over and over again, weeks after weeks.
Seriously, I don't wish to do some brainless "factory work" everyday or even for months.

I really want to learn something, I really want to experience true auditing but I don't think I've any chance to.

It has already been 10 weeks and it's not getting any better even after my LO came to visit.

Some people told me to complain/feedback to my LO but I've given up hope on it caused I don't think she really understand after explaining to her many many times the situation that I'm in now/the problem that I'm facing. She did try to help by giving me some advice/suggestions but it doesn't help you see.

Some people told me to be optimistic. Yup, I've tried but does it really matter or work?

I don't want my 6 months to be wasted like this even if i can survive through my interim and final report. I really want to gain something from this internship.

Although it might be a more relaxing lifestyle as compared to when I'm schooling such that I could sleep and wake up later than usual and there's no tutorials/homework to be done (= more rest/more time for myself) but it somehow affects me negatively too.

I began to lose my purpose of life.
I began to sit, wait and procrastinate even when I know i should take my initiative to do something.

I began to feel rather lost when it comes to weekend, when there's no RCY events or anything.
I began to feel so out of place when i didn't check my emails/visit facebook for a day or two. And when that happens, somehow or rather, I would choose to continue to not touch my laptop and go MIA, trying to avoid or run away from some stuff. I really don't know what's happening to me! I just feel so weird and awkward! OMG.

There's a Online Chat with my LO and my fellow DBS interns tmr and I'm so not prepared for it. We are supposed to prepare to share an incident that happened at work/work related issues and what you've learnt from that experience. Believe me or not, I totally don't have such experience or incident to share. Thus I'm pretty worried right now. THINK, EDNA THINK!

Alright, to end off with something more enjoyable.............

Photos from DBS Dinner and Dance 2011 at MBS on 7 NOV.

It's quite cool actually.