Hmmm... How should I start on this post? You know, you are my everything. Just want you to know that no matter how poor you are, I believe that we can both survive through this tough period together even if it means that we have to meet up less frequent, or you not being able to lunch with me that often or you can't afford to send me home (but I can still continue to accompany you home)! I won't let go of you just because of that but I will stay by your side to support you through this tough time. Seeing you feeling sian about this but I can't do anything to help just makes me feel quite useless especially at that point of time yesterday. I don't dare to offer to pay for your dinner or lend you money cause I know you won't accept so I can just stand by you and try to make you smile with my rather lame and weak jokes or stupid actions. If you know me well, I'm really not a good joker. I really wish that I could do more.
I really wished that I could stop letting my tears flow down my cheeks even before you realize it but I've failed and it got worse. I'm sorry. I really don't want to add on to your problems and make you worry about me. But I just can't stop crying when you were there and when you started saying touching things. I felt really guilty for making you miss the football match, for going home late just to stay there with me to pacify me and for being so much like a kid who couldn't stop crying and last of all for making you upset. But whatever it is, trust me, I didn't think that you are selfish or anything, just felt that as your gf, I should actually do more and be more matured. Give me some time to learn to be a better gf alright! I love you panda!
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