It doesn't matter.

Felt so useless. Felt like a crybaby. What else do I know how to do other than crying everyday and making you worry.
Somethings are just pointless to say it out so I would rather not say. It makes no difference if I tell you that I want to see you right now when you've already left to go home cause you wont be so stupid to alight halfway and take the bus back to find me. I want to hug you tight and not let go but I can't. I have to let go eventually cause I know your parents are waiting for you at home and I just can't be so selfish to make you stay. Even if I say that I want to stay out the whole night and would like you to accompany me, you won't allow but would ask me to go home instead. That's why I ended up keeping everything to myself as I know it won't make a difference by saying out and I might just give you more pressure by doing so. Please don't misinterpret my actions or even guess what I'm thinking cause more than often you won't get it right. I'm sorry. Sorry for using your words against you. It wasn't intentional. I just don't want you to be a disobedient son because of me. I'm sorry that it caused you to be very upset at that moment. Please scold me if I've done anything wrong cause I don't want to lose you because of my stupid, foolish and childish act.