my soulmate.

Trying my best to stop myself to look for you whenever I have the urge to and I think that I'm doing well so far.... 

And yes, I won't make the same mistake again! I really have to control! 

But at times I really feel that I'm all alone, so lost and empty even when I know that I have you. It just seems like it's always the wrong time whenever I want to confide in you or when I needed you the most. You are just not there. 

I feel that your friends need you more than I do thus I chose not to be selfish and let you entertain them instead of getting your attention or ask you to listen to me cause I need someone to confide in or just simply to talk to.

Sometimes I just feel that it's so difficult to even get a comforting hug from you. I'm always so cautious with my actions cause I'm afraid I might just do something wrong and ruin everything. 

Have been feeling really really down during the weekends without specific reasons or probably I'm just too afraid to know the exact reason thus refraining myself to think about it. 

I've got to let go of all the insecurities or I would just be living in fear everyday.