The day after exams.

Yes, ystd was my last paper. Felt so relieved after it although i know i've screwed up this exam. But what's done, can't be undone right?
First day after exam....
Felt kind of lost as in i don't have a fix schedule like have to study this and that for today and stuff like that.
In short, i've nth to do!
For those who are studying for their exams now would feel like taking something to throw at me now. Free also complain, busy also complain. What you want?
ya, i don't exactly know what i want.
That's what human are right?
Can't be satisfied. Forever so greedy.

So.... what i've done today was to scan through my "memory box".
Read through most of the letters and cards that i've received throughout the past 5 years.
It's kind of nice to do that when you've the time to cause it brings back lots of memory.
No matter how good my memory is, definitely there's some things that i would have forgotten or just slip through my mind.
It could also change the opinion that you've on somebody.
You might be like oh....i didn't know that this have actually happened
Or laugh or give a little smile upon reading some of those letters that your friends have written to you.
For me, after reading the letters and cards, i realised quite a few things but i shall not say it here.

Sometimes, when you begin to lose faith in something or someone in particular, it'll be good to search back those beautiful memories that you've with them. You've to learn to understand and forgive. I felt enlightened after this session. thankyou for all these 'evidence' so that i won't forget what we've been through together, how close we were and to believe that i can still be that girl that you all have showed so much love, care and concern to, especially when i'm losing faith and hope in it.

However, one thing that makes me ponder was that is everything that you wrote comes from the bottom of your heart.are all of them true? can i really believe everything. i doubt so.
Like we always say, change is inevitable. People change, their feelings towards things change too. How much can we believe when we read something like i'm sure our friendship will last forever and stuff like that. How much can we believe when people say i'll be there 24/7. It's difficult you know.

All those crushes and infatuation. It's kind of funny when you look back at it. It feels weird and funny to read those things again. Maybe years later, people might even forget that they have actually wrote this. Imagine 10 years later, when you have class gathering with your ex-classmates and you take out those letters that they have written and show it to them. What will their reaction be? I guess we'll all end up laughing for all the cliche and childish stuff that we've once writeen.

I really miss secondary school days whereby everyone is still there.